Why Stay Here

Sora got upset with me last night. He is moving up so well, even when so many would think in some ways it a failure or at least not some one with high ambition. That isn't true thought, he is amazing. I believe, well I use to believe, that everyone had potential for good and greatness. Hm, yea. Sora, however, is proof at least a few, or, ha, one person is. He struggles, he hurts, he is real. I know others can see his dependability. His amazingness. His pure love and willingness to do what needs to be done. He is all about chivalry and courtesy, especially with me. He truly loves me. Always has, from the beginning. Always will, forever will. I told him, I was an obstacle. In the way of his success. His life. I am such a downer. It's so unbearable to be with me. Sigh. I feel as if I am such a black blot on the world. I wish so much, well most of the time, tht he would just let me end my life...

Just A Note

I have found that when you don't know who you are it is harder to answer that question. I feel ever so slightly irradiated when a person asks me this question. I wonder if they themselves know who they are? Why ask me who I am? Is this important? Why must you know? Do you even really want to know...I believe many wander aimlessly in mindless thought about who each may be without actually considering the very question of that thought. Yes, I am trying to answer that question, it gets complicated when I have to answer to another beside myself. So please just wait....