In Hong Kong

Hong Kong is a place I have already had the pleasure of visiting, however I would Looooovve yo visit this wonderful, amazing city again [live there, yes!]. It is such a beautiful pace, especially for a city. It is the first city I have walked in day and night in which I felt safe, comfortable and welcome. Even compared to my native land metropolis'. I had the privilege of dining local cuisine at the small town to large restaurants, and also with some amazing locals and their favorites. I also had the pleasure to stroll through several amazing cultural points of interest. One of my favorites was a Kowloon Market, talk about fun. And the items for bargaining of all sort of variety blew my mind. Walking along the beaches and the harbour was a total different, yet familiar, experience. I also was pleased to experience the religious aspect of this wonderful country. A nunnery with amazing bonsai trees surrounding the lily pad litter pools; a traditional Japanese garden; a traditional temple in the middle of a busy cityscape; and climbing the stairs to Giant Buddha in the Po Lin Monastery above Tai O village on Lantau Island. It was great and I cannot wait to go back and experience more of the culture and celebrations that I missed the first time, and maybe visit the places I have already been!

Thinking In Future

So weird thoughts lately, I realization I suppose to be more accurate. I have always thought about what I wanted, dreamed about future things but I have never actually planned they would happen. Honestly i never planned to live this long. I was sure I would of died or killed myself. I was close. However, spending all this amazing time with my beloved, I have for the first time seen a light in my future. It amazes me the greatness of his love that has continually shown to me unconditionally, well the only condition is that I remain alive. I have never experience such a thing from anyone. I had always hoped such a love existed. I had believed for so long in a religion that I believed to hold such a key. Of course that dreams was shattered of the wait of lies and deception crushed everything I was for so many long years. Now I have been given a life, through everything he has given me. I am wary of clinging to any human still. I still have this concept I fight with in my head about my uselessness, my wretchedness. But, god, how I love this man who has continued to rescue me from the clutches of the sad, pathetic past of mine. Now I begin to write down plans for an amazing adventure everyday with him. He works so hard for us, he is only human but he works so damn hard for something that I have not been able to truly believe. It has been something at the core what I dearly believe for every cognitive moment of my being. The words that he expresses are so clearly shown in his actions, making want to share the world with him in every way I possibly can. Oh to think the places we will go, the things we will see around the world. Traveling to far away places of beauty and realities unknown to us in the shelters place of these states. The hope of owning a little place not far from the cost to call our own. I would always talk about it out of routine lines along which path a life should being taking in their next steps. These days have been an entirely new experience in this area of the future. I actually have hope. Making me smile deep inside, knowing that this is the best revenge I could lay out for those wretches who've thought they blackened my life. You fucked up my past but hell if I'm letting you have anything to do with my future.

Backpacking in Europe

I have, for as far back as I can remember, always wanted to backpack around Europe. Especially with my best friend, my love. It would be amazing and so much fun. It may sound like a lot of work but my rational keeps my thoughts on the excitement of it. Don't get me wrong I love airports, honestly. I don't like the lines and stupid people and of course stripped searched. However, the feel of awaiting your new destination, the stores, all the interesting people, restaurants, its an experience. Back to backpacking, I want to and will do this. Why? Well, instead of the hours waiting in line and at a terminal, for a flight that would take minutes, to get from one place to the next, I would rather be walking, biking, training, or busing across foreign lands. To bast in the glory and beauty for all they are worth. To see things that may be similar to things that I have never seen before in my life. To enjoy the space I am visiting fully and entirely. Europe, the place of my ancestors, the origins of our nation. I would love to see the art of the greats and the places they were born and lived. To see the grandeur of the structures built with power and grace. The castles, the cathedrals, the monuments, the places built for kings. Some of the things I would love to visit is the Stonehenge, Amsterdam -Netherlands; Dubrovnik/the Plitvice Lakes -Croatia; Berlin -Germany; Lauterbrunnen - Switzerland; Rome/Italian Riviera/Tuscany/Venice/Barcelona/Florence -Italy; Greece - Meteora/the Greek Islands/Athens; Hallstatt - Austria; London/Cornwall - England; Paris/Madrid - France; Copenhagen - Scandinavia...and a list of other things to do and architectural places. I can't wait, seven years of planing and saving and we'll be there. ^.^

Our New Adventures

So after much deliberation, I think I'm I'm going to start writing about the places I/We want to travel to and why. I just feel like sharing my dreams of travel, which now more then ever, seem like something we can do. Of course there are many close to our motherland, however their are so many places we would love to visit in their  own cultural context. To see the way they see things, and see Americans. I hate relying solely on media and social networks to give me the information from their point of view. I really would just like to experience it myself. So let the adventures begin!

Fighting In Darkness

Tonight, I sit alone discovering myself. I fight the dark thoughts of death and self-hatred with fantasies of others creation. The delight of a heartfelt story to drown out my despairs in reminiscent emotions. I look back at my life as a child flipping through a picture book. The images of what has passed haunt me like cruel poltergeist, taunting my soul. The pain rages within in me some days, some night, quieted only by the man that chooses to continue to love me unconditionally. He strives for me to just live. Is it true that now I may have a future? That everything that was once so consistent will no longer come to pass? I believe I may be hoping this to be true, for the first time. My man is becoming the greatest of them all. Fighting for me, like any real man should for the beloved. How sweet and strong he is. Holding so tightly to the weak life I am. So as I sit here pondering what the future may hold, I wish to dream of the future we are.